2005: THE YEAR THAT WAS

Looking back to 2005, it has been a year of newfound and lost; success and failures; laughs and cries; joy and depression; realization and in denial and most importantly the beginning of pre-mid life crisis.

I haven’t really put much thought how the year has been treating me so let’s key in and evaluate.

NEWFOUND

• Dinners with friends from afar and always have something to talk about even if it’s been 5 years.
• New friends that are dear to you.
• Chili’s Monterey Chicken and Fajita Quesadillas (yummy !)
• I like latin dances ! Hail Qba !
• Rum and sprite.
• Midori.
• Little Havana.
  

LOST

• A good buddy which initially I thought was dead 2 years back from drug overdose (heheheh….he’s well and wealthy now !)
• Taz’s backseat shades.
• Time spend with the usual weekend kakis coz circumstances changed
• Gym membership – January.
• Losing a close friend over a stupid understand which can be deal with but she chose to stay away.

SUCCESS

• A step forward in career. Where I hope and should be before 30.
• Rejoining Gym with fellow friends – June.
• A non-Malaysian made car. Call me corny but my theory in this is if I can afford an imported car, I’ve achieved something.
• A good Xmas party
  

FAILURE

• Surprisingly I can’t think of anything. Took me a very long while but I just cant think I’ve fail anything or anyone this year. I can’t be having such a contented year…..can I ?????
  

LAUGHS

• A never-ending episode of my life.
• A daily regime I preach and live for.
• Moment spent with family and friends kept me going and think positively about life and living in this crazy world.
  

CRIES

• Moments I spent to carry burden I do not wish to undertake but had too because an obligation that cannot be dismiss.
• Times I pray wishing for strength and patience from Allah s.w.t
• Frustration when I can’t find anyone to turn to in my hours of need and knowing the one person who could is millions miles oversea.
• Maximum anger cause by your own flesh and blood.
  

JOY

• Latin American dance class.
• Office Xmas party.
• Rum and sprite (hahahahhahahahahahaha)
• KIA Spectra – black beau !

DEPRESSION

• Defamatory by the unexpected. The one that suppose to stick by you is your likely enemy.
• Uncall-for statements from dear friends who mutated once married.
• Flooded room.
• Indescribable grievance dealing with 1-month old NEW car over air-condition failure. Never had I put myself in high risk while driving – oxygen deficiency, hyperventilating over hot air, excessive intake of carbon monoxide and fogged windows on heavy raining days.
  

REALIZATION

• I’m not getting any younger.
• My ass is no longer growing.
• More people are merry and gay (hahahahhahahahahahahahahhaha)
• My boss have a heart after all !
• I’m allergic to alcohol…at least some !
  

IN DENIAL

• I’m 23 at least !
• I can fit size 12.
• My ass is no longer growing.
• The is still a decent straight man out there *wishful thinking*
  

PRE-MID LIFE CRISIS

• I’ll date younger man (I’m only 23 anyways !)
• Hi and lo
  

My 1st Christmas Party

Actually I do not remember if I ever attended a Xmas party before. Maybe I did when I was younger but sure cant recall when.

Anyways, it's tradition that new recruits organise the company's xmas party. I'm glad I was put under entertainment cause it's something I enjoy doing and pretty good at. Being in the committee was good for me because I, then, get to know and talk to colleague outside my team. It was a good exposure...but a bit too much too. I was so...emmm...bubbly that night, I think a whole loads of other people outside from the committee knows me too. I even did a number on "I'm not a girl, not yet a women". Someone said I did a good imitation of Britney Spears. What what??!! I rather have a spear through my heart than sound like Britney !

The next day of course my boss cant stop laughing at me but I didnt mind. I knew I wasnt being a bitch but just a very happy child. I needed to giggle and laugh the night out. At that moment, me worries fade away and I cant describe how wonderful it felt. Thank god for no hangovers !

Although there was a rumour or two about me that night, it's all good. The amazing change now was obvious. 7 months ago nobody knew who I was, now they do but I'm still learning their names. Not meant to sound like a snob, but even if I do not know their names, now when I pass by creative, they know I'm a colleague not a visitor.

Wheels

1st Dec
BABE on HOT WHEELS

It took a lot of hassle and grief but finally it paid off brilliantly !

Got my new ride today and it look pretty slick in it black metallic skin with sexy interior. I love the registration too. In chinese it means prosperous til dead. But if interpret number by number it means die forever die prosper. Sounds scary aint it. Even scarier its sum to single digit is 4 !.....tu tu tu tut tu tu tu tut.... being an optimistic me, for Malay "4" actually means rich and happy. So for this, I stand by my Malay heritage believes :-)

In the beginning, it feels like driving for the first time. I was such a cautious driver, I would horn me too ! It felt different and need getting use to but it was a good feeling. Driving a non-Proton made was one of the things I planned to achieve before 30 and I got it. Though actually it was owning a Putra but hey...it's been 5 years since I wrote "things to achieve" list and naturally it revolve accordingly.

Am i happy? Yes and no because me getting this ride had its conflict but like always... I just gotta deal and hey....LIVE WITH IT !


17 Dec - NOW
BABE FEEL HOT in WHEELS

Just when I'm beginning to embrace my new ride, the unexpected happened.

The air-cond broke down after its first service ! Can you believe this? It rides less than 1200 km and the air-cond fucked up ! Thank god at that time, my tolerance level was high. So being the patience me, I went on Monday 19 Dec, to get it fix. They changed to a new termacon and after 15 mins on the road.....it fucked up AGAIN ! I would have it sort out the same day but I had a handful of work to deal with and Client kept on calling that I had to go on another day.

So the high-tolerancy-me waited til Xmas party all done and over so I have time to go and fix it again....and to only be told to wait another 4 days cause they're out of parts and need to get approval etc *sigh*

If I wanted the hassle I stick with my Wajwa.

Wishful thinking before the year end is that all bad things will turn out good ........eventually.