The wheel of fortune... I am !

You are The Wheel of Fortune

Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of
intoxication with success

The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you. Be careful that success does not go to your head however. Sometimes luck can change.

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or am I an Empress?

You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

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Genting I'm coming...

The hassle we have to go through when some VIP comes done for a visit. At this instance, I’m glad I’m not part of the senior management. Don’t think I can handle real work and function simultaneously. At least not til….(checking projects for the year)… pretty much never ! Hah !

Anyways, cant wait to Thursday – Genting here I come ! Again ! hehehehe…was there last April or May for a short retreat. This time, I’m going with half the peeps and not the same too. It was a good deal RM49.88 includes board and outdoor theme park entrance for 2. Unfortunate for Along, she decided a day after we made our bookings and the offer was all taken up but she wanted to getaway so opt for RM78.88 offer for room only. If you need a break, anything will do.

I wanted to head with my family but time and mostly financial ain’t looking so nifty for us lately. Traveling individually is easier to manage. Haven’t decided if we’ll take the skyway. I don’t mind it really but another half wanted to drive up. We’ll see.

I’m definitely staying away from the Solero Shot. The last time was mind-boggling experience that I totally lost all sense of direction and trying too keep cool, as if it was no fear… dang freaky hard !

I wanna do the rides we didn’t had time for before, like the water bumper car, the less thrilling dragon rollercoaster and maybe this time I’m lucky to go on the go-kart ! hehehehe..actually I’m not to hung up on that but will definitely do the other rides than before.

3 days then.... yoohoo !

Don't speak...

There is unwritten code that when you walked into the office toilet you don’t greet whoever you meet in there to avoid embarrassment. I mean that person you bump to may have done something nasty that the next cubicle user cant stand and that person may still be in there !

I had my share of avoidance, trust me ! hehehehe….

I find it cute that we have that unspoken code. It’s funny really. There was even a time that I accidentally said hi to someone when she was washing her hands and of course name mentioned and she just nodded and immediately walked away ! I thought she must be rushing off on a deadline but then I saw one gal came out from her cube and looking fouled ! I kinda figure out what happened and realised I may have let the cat out of the bag !

Now I learned to not make anymore accidental embarrassing error, I just walked in and smile. It saved face. Really !

That just one day...

I am so good in controlling my rage that I wondered why I bothered in the first place. Life’s like that. I say it all the time. It’s a roller coaster ride with a never ending journey. There’s good times and bad times. Sometime I’m lucky sometime I’m not. Most of the time I tolerate it but there’s always that ONE day that blew me off.

So far this year has not been a rosy ride for me. Officially the Ling2 has broken up and what is left is devoted friendship near and far. The story behind it is too enticing and sensitive to reveal but one thing for sure between myself and each individual stays unchanged. I’m handling more people than usual and it’s getting very challenging day by day. Money-wise… still unwise and I don’t see it improving any time soon… at least not this year !

On the upside, a newfound bond initiated through a high school musical… eh I mean friend. Who would have thought someone you knew for so long is a bosom friend waiting to be discovered.

Don’t fret Nad. You’re irreplaceable!

…..emmmm…..*scratching head*….. dang ! That’s the only upside I can think of for now. I guess I have my health and family and friends. So hey hey !

Enuf is enuf !!

Time sure flies fast when you’re having no fun at all !

Well, not exactly true. I think I had some fun in this New Year. 24 days has past so far and it’s been 14 days since I last updated my blog. So much sure has happened. Mom had her cataract operation 2 weeks ago.

Yeah the chicken treatment didn’t hacked it though I’m sure it’s still roaming around the village !


The nieces got a new aunty and I’m less appealing to them now. Actually I’m fine with that. Can passing playtime... uhuk uhuk

Started gym again but not as constant as before. Aiming for weekend workout but usually weekend is the only time I get to recuperate. I’m constantly unwell, either a fever, flu, tonsillitis or ear(s) infection. I know this is all due to stress. I have reached the stage of major discontentment and at any point will blow up and explode !

Honestly, it’s not the environment but the people. Bloody freaking hay ! Enough being a punch bag ! Enough asking so much from me ! Enuf is enuf !

Ok… I need to chill and relax…

I need more than that…

I need anew :-(

Hah Hah....

Last night as I lay sleeping
I died or so it seemed,
Then I went to heaven
But only in my dream.

Up there St. Peter met me
Standing at the pearly gates,
He said "I must check your file.
Please stand here and wait."

Spikey says:
"I see that you drank alcohol
And smoked and used drugs too.
Fact is, you've done everything
A good person should never do."
"We can't let people like you up here -
Your life was full of sin."
Then he read the last line on my file,
Took my hand and said "Come in.

Spikey says:
He led me to the big boss and said
"Take him in and treat him well.
He used to work in advertising.
He's done his time in hell."

Desolation

6 days in 2007 and these words meant more to me than it had before…

Disappointment
You’ve done your best but it’s never enough. The more you thrived the more obstacles you have to face. It’s a never-ending story but life IS a journey not a destination. Yet sometimes, you wish for that one lull that allows you to breath and the chance to say, ‘life is bliss’.

Those without a will can get distraught but those who have kept in silent and hope there is means for all this anguish and wait for that silver lining.


Deception
It’s individual choice to share about themselves to others. Maybe it’s for their best interest. Maybe it’s to protect the other. As and when they decide to tell the truth, keep an open mind and don’t think all this time you’ve been lied too. Actually I can’t help thinking as such but come to think of it, there must be a reason why it didn’t come about earlier and I respect that choice. Sometimes it’s the best thing to do. Sometimes I know I do it too…


Desperation
The feeling to get away from it all becomes more needing than before. Hoping the new year bring new content but as much a dreamer I would like to be, reality sink in and I know, Aladdin and his lamp is just a fairy tale story.

Responsibilities, debts, feuds, all this ain’t going away unless luck changes. And would it? I choose the path. It’s all mine to bare. So let’s hope I take the right turn and avoid getting into another dead end.


Departed
Best to describe Ling2.

It seems Aiman being posted to Desaru forever or until further notice. The rush resulted to no last gad, no decent goodbyes and no proper farewell.

Not how I want my 1st week of new year to be and definitely not wanting to lose a kin. I know you don’t always get what you want but losing someone that you need is tragic. Instantly a part of you is lost and there’s no replacement whatsoever that can mend a broken heart. I had my lost and learned to share how I honestly feel so that one day I won’t remorse over something I should be truthful about.

All good things come to an end. I was not expecting it’ll be this soon for us. Who would have thought, our 1st gift exchange welcoming the new year was actually a gift parting.

And so Maman, I know you know this but just in case, I love you long long time and missing you infinity.

PS.. sorry ezz ure not in the pix.. wanted to show this pix off actually :-D

Welcome 2007...

I continued the tradition to visit on Aidil adha. Though the fleet may change, the tradition still remains.

After last stop at Sam’s and in two hour later would be the welcome of 2007. I haven’t been celebrating it in public since… I can’t recall. I do know usually I’ll stay home and head out after 1am. Last year, I was at Ijan’s.

Anyways, after brainless thought, we ended up in Genting, YusSai and I. Sam warned us traffic might be bad heading up. So since we have nothing else in mind and didn’t want to be stuck in KL traffic, we went and alhamdullillah traffic was cleared. Up until we reached there cause everyone went up to see the fireworks and they closed entrance to parking. Poor YusSai, driving a manual and drove for an hour looking for a place to park. There’s only so much I can do at that point…zzzzzz….. yeah felt asleep ! hehehe…. Sorry YusSai.

We went for the new year celebration party… wazitcal… cant remember the name of the event. DJ was blasting good mixes. Happening ! It’ll be more fun if the rest was around too. It’s was an ad hoc plan and majority was either away or already made plans.

Came back at 7am. Bumped to mom and she was arranging things into the cabinet. She thought I was heading out. Then she noticed I was in the same top and as always, dazed with the things I do sometimes…hehehe

It was a great end and an excellent start to a new year. I hope it’ll be brilliant throughout.
I can only wish….