H**** B*** **

I am confuse…

Am I suppose to hold on or I can do it now…

It’s very unlike me not to do it exactly midnite now it’s almost afternoon and am still holding back coz I don’t wanna poop any bubbles until…

Yesterday we already shared a sad sentiment for not doing our usual in ramadhan…

We have our fridays but it’s just not the same. I’m even thinking about giving that up coz I’ve not improved and it will take loads of mileage to do so…

Gym starts in Oct but it will never be like before. We have our own preference and location and timing matters…

Sad to say we have drifted a bit but we do try our best to stay communicated…

Whatever it is, I had this urge since midnite last nite but just can do what I wanna do so much until I get the permission to send…

Arrggghhhh… the agony! It never slip my mind and gosh this is hard…

Do not compose sms!
Do not press send!
Do not choose contact to sms!

AHHHHHHH… Helppppp….Haaaapppyyyyyy………………..

Sex&dct...

I have just watched sex&dct. It was a great chix flix movie, a showcase of today’s fearless and fabulous in-trend ladies and the complication of urbanized relationship. Sad but true, I yearn the days of ‘love at first sight’ and the torment of a broken heart. Urbanites rather tolerate an open relationship yet demand faithfulness and honesty. Well, some KL urbanites I reckon. Does one expect no broken heart when unintended emotion reel on oneself? Well, that’s not sex&dct. It’s a modern fairytale that love do exist and complications are just part of a relationship.

Rambling on, watching the movie reminded me of Nad and suddenly I miss her so much. Live is meaningless if you do not have emotional support and someone to empathize your grieves with.

I don’t think I have my ‘sex&dct gals’ anymore. Through time, we parted and ym and fb becomes our modus connection. Who’s gonna raise-me-up when I’m 50 like Samantha, single and gorgeous and give me a reason to live another fabulous 50 more years? OMG! I depress me.

I so miss Nad :-(

Better late than never...

There was only 4 then passed 10pm, Marlin came. Even in a small group, we survived 8 hours of k’ok even though we began to weardown by midnite. This session can be themed “The pastertime”. I was singing songs I heard when I was one feet tall until 4 feet 9inch now! That’s new and ‘atasnamacinta’ spinned 3 times that nite! It was fun but moreover, we were all impressed with each other recall of some of the songs.

You know this?

Who sang this song?

Song like this was a hit last time? What were they thinking?

Ila tau lagu melayu…wow!

What year was this song? Born already mah?

It wasn’t much but it’s your passion and I know you likey! Why did we do this during ramadhan month? Because it’s AIMAN’S BDAY!


HAPPY BELATED BDAY MAMAN! SORRY FOR THE LATE POSTING :-)

Tired but gracious…

I tell you, eh I story you, this fasting month has been my tiring ever.

Not only I’ve no mood for work, wished I’m boss-less again, even better if I’ve my own biz, but I also doing night shift at home!

On Mon, an order for 105 packs of raya cookies came in and the income, alhamdullillah. The only thing is, delivery is Sept 16! Each packs has approx 60 pcs and split between 3 variants. Mom usually bakes weekend coz I’m around to help her out but a week to complete 3 variants of 35 packs each!? Of course we cant make it. But like I said, the return is good. So the only way to complete it is to bake daily. Mom would start about noon and juggled between 3Qs and baking. So, after iftar, I would take over the oven and packaging dept. Been missing terawih since wed i think...

At the same time, actual work is piling up and there’s a pitch on Oct 6 and I’ve been noted that we may need to work through raya! Chances are, I'll tai chi my boss and GM coz their both chinese and my role there is to get paperwork ready. Am sure their do brililiantly without me. Insyallah.

Even now, am waiting for mom to complete the uli-ing process and eyes getting a bit heavy. I’m not blogging online coz am not connected to the net, so as alt, I write in Word first. Time now 7am. Not gonna sleep til baking's done.

It’s beginning to slacken me at work but I’ll recover eventually. Whatever it is, Mom get to get her stuff, and am glad this order came in. Alhamdullillah.

Like I always say, Bukan senang nak senang.

Zzzzzzzzzzz….*am asleep*

Things you should have done before 30…

I got this off Cle0 sept issue and thought, let’s reflect and see if I cut it.

1. Channel a classic movie and throw a drink in a man’s face.
I spilled Coke on Ronny’s head in the school bus during high school coz he dared me but I apologized coz I’ve no intention to actually do it. Uncle bus break, so it accidently tipped out!

2. Delete the words “random” and “totally” from your vocab.
Oppsssttt… am totally not over “totally”.

3. Break someone’s heart; have your own heart broken.
Guilty!

4. Drink a champagne cocktail in a posh Paris bar.
Didn’t visit a bar when I went to Paris, nor did I had champagne cocktail, instead I had oyster and a choc cake that haywired my tingles. Does that count?

5. Divorce toxic friends.
Does this means friends toxicated under influence or back-stabbing pretenders? Done both anyhow.

6. Drive a wickedly cool car, even if you have to rent it.
That would be a Porsche or Ferrari for me and I cant afford to rent it so just to score points, I drove a Ford ranger into the wilderness over a 4” tree bark (bunk, balk… is this right?) crossing over a deep hole. Scarrrryyyyyyy…

7. Use an alias for a day.
My name is Absolute. Absolute Gorgeous. Muahahahaha…

8. Cook an impressive three-course meal for someone.
Off-shelf smoked salmon, canned spaghetti with tomato sauce and cheesecake from the cheesecake shop. Impressive enuf :-D

9. Learn how to successfully change a car tyre.
I was either 10 or 12 when I did this.

10. Break up with a man who you know is bad for you; similarly, have a fling with a guy who you know is bad for you!
No comment *whistle*

11. Have a killer joke ready to use for one of those awkward moments.
Don’t have unless telling stories about friends that have done or say something silly counts…?

12. Travel somewhere by yourself – a foreign country, another city or just a weekend road trip.
Always travelled with a crowd. I would do this, maybe next year.

13. Volunteer for a charity you really care about.
I, myself is a charity. Any volunteers? Ahaks!

14. Go to an art gallery and buy an original piece of art.
Visited few gallery in my lifetime but has this writer check out the price for the art?! If you’re not an art collector or an appreciator of art, owning one will not give you a feeling of achievement aint it…

15. Dine unaccompanied in a nice restaurant.
Why??

16. Run or train for a marathon.
Done during school years, Merdeka run and Hong Le0ng charity run. Hey, that means I’ve volunteer for a charity already right!?

17. Pay off your credit cards/debts/car loan.
HAH! This will be my never-ending qualm unless I win a lottery (if I ever start buying one!), win AmazRaceAsia (when I finally send an entry), stumble upon a bag of cash or get a humble down to earth faithful open minded funny thoughtful understanding man. HAH! One more time… HAH!

18. Learn how to choose the perfect wine.
I don’t drink wine. Sangria, cham or neslo can??

19. Try something you said you’d would never do i.e skydiving or eat escargot.
Eh hold on, was it escargot or oyster I had in Paris? I would do skydiving anytime coz I like doing the extreme. What would be things I wouldn’t do and should try doing…mmmm… wearing PINK! Arrrggghhhhh… NEVER!

20. Learn how to stand up for yourself when you receive poor customer service.
If only I can get them to give me testimonials…

21. Spend a whole pay packet on a pair of shoes.
WHAT? I rather spend it travelling!

22. Confess a crush to a friend.
I think I’ve done this but I cant recall who. Have I ever…mmmm yet again.

23. Have a favourite book that isn’t a chick-lit.
Titled FISH. Me likey!

24. Quit a job without having another lined up.
Coming soon… errr.. after I settle my finanSial.

25. Buy a complete set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill and a lace bra.
Screwdrivers came with the car, Ngah has drill I can always borrow and A lace bra? A few.

26. Find out which friends you can and cant trust, and learn to not take it personally.
My peeps my ling2 my crew and my bosom buds. I’m good.

27. Live all by yourself for a least 6 months.
I guess 3 weeks homesit don’t count huh...

28. Forgive someone who wronged you; apologise to someone you’ve betrayed.
Sing with me “it’s too late to apologise. It’s too lateeeeeeee……”

29. Learn CPR and Heimlich maneuvers.
What’s Heimlich?

30. Visit a strip club.
Straight or gay? Men or women? Hehehe.. I think I overfulfilled this requirement!

Here's ramadhan...

So far its been raining all day since Ramadhan and it’s been freezing in the office, in fact every place I’m in, even at home.

Before Ramadhan, I did few last I would commonly do during unfasting hours – dinner with crewies, late nite in Sanctu@ry, supper at idam@n and lunch k’ok at pavilion.

And today, we are already breaking fast together in our last dinner spot – Ayam penyet ria.

A month of fasting doesn’t mean a month off gadding huh…


On a separate note, last two weeks I’ve been updating and adapting my resume according to specific job scope offered. Yeah, headhunted again and not that am losing faith or anything, but a chance to be out from an agency haven’t been positive in the last 4 years. Am not complaining or anything. Alhamdullillah the company am currently in is bearable and I must admit, I have more time for me than before but just less time to blog… hehehe… well, you win some and lose some.

Insyallah, this time, this round, I’m expandable to a different frontier.

Amin.

Avril rockin'

Avril is really talented and flawless in her performance last Friday. Her voice is exactly as her album and she’s simply adorable. She played the guitar, piano and drums and I know almost all the songs to her lyrics. What more can I say, she’s good… so am I *wink*